hi.
so, you know the feeling, you get when you have nothing to do. really, nothing to do. sure, you got a room full of activities: the internet, books, tv etc etc etc. but non of this interest you. you could hang out with your parents or your 4-year old sister. but nothing interest you.
all your friends are out, either dancing or partying. you call your most loyal friend, but she is not home. she's out partying.
you feel like a loser. you realise you dont know anyone in the country you live in, because you just moved there. you feel like a bigger loser. you cant remember the last time you drank any form of alcohol. you feel like you are the definition of the word 'loser'.
you go to your kitchen to raid the fridge/cabinets for snacks. as youre eating them you feel lonely, you feel like the food is youre only friend. you start to think badly of yourself. suddenly you become depressed. you sigh. no one is online on facebook/myspace, no one has left you any messages. you feel terribly lonely.
you've flipped through all the magazines in your room like a hundred times. you feel bored. you feel tired, but not so tired that you want to go to bed. suddenly you feel the need for a cigarette. you have not had a smoke since last friday. you cant buy any, and your parents would flip if they found out. you get restless. you start walking around your house, to find some way to relax. nothing works.
you sit down and stare at your phone, begging it to ring. it does! you hope its one of your friends calling you to tell you that she is just as bored as you. it's not. its a wrong number. finally you feel so lonely, depressed, restless and like youre the biggest loser in the universe, that you decide to give up. you go to bed early. its 9 pm.
well do you?
